Everything crashed today. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to afford the flights to Michigan for the conference and it also happens to be on the same weekend that Derek bought very expensive tickets to a concert in Edmonton. I promised I’d go. I’m so confused because I never want to make an important decision because of a boy but I’m so upset about hurting him. I cried for an hour before he got on the plane to Hawaii. I can’t compromise my future right? But I also shouldn’t hurt a friend, right? I’m not mature enough to make this decision in a way that isn’t going to hurt someone.